Voice: Lost and Found

Lately, it has become difficult for me to write anything.  My voice has been stifled by fear.  I have tried to create the perfect conditions to write and this has created a paralyzing procrastination.  I was afraid of not choosing the right topic, words, or tone.  I pained over every letter and when it was too hard, I quit to write another day.  Days turned into weeks and weeks into months.  Then I read an inspiring post from San Diego Momma called Building, which helped me put my fear and frustration into perspective.

Writing when it is coming from a truly personal place is supposed to be difficult and churn up many emotions.  I’m moved to write on deeper issues of my own career transition and journey as a  working mother, using my story as a real life example of my constant struggle to pursue my passion, the trials of over-extending myself, the pressure to be a great wife and mother, and the difficulty of managing a household.

I have been struggling with these issues in private but these are the exact issues women and especially working mothers are struggling with everyday and need to hear about.  Instead of focusing on answers, which are fleeting at best, I’m going to share my journey.  Perhaps it will serve others to know they are not alone.  Most of all, this is my way of putting myself first, which you all should do.  I have been running low on gas lately and it’s time to fill my own gas tank.  Make sure to check out San Diego Momma, http://sandiegomomma.com/ to see this great writer for yourself.  She is a wealth of wisdom and is winning the battle against her fears everyday.